(More fragments from another chat with a ‘new’ stranger in a cafe.) (This follows on from an earlier ‘Rumination’.)
“Yeah, still writing, still thinking. Still dithering really.
“Because deciding what to do is tough.
“Why? Because none of this aggro is going to just go away. And because I think I should. I suppose that’s what it comes down to. And I should because I can.
“Oh, I don’t know. Can I make a difference – a real difference? Of course I don’t know. But because I know if I don’t try I won’t achieve anything … well, then you have to. At least, I think I have to.
“So, yeah, I’m trying because I think I have to, but yeah, I’m dithering about what to do, what to actually do.
“At the top if you like, the first question I’m struggling with, dithering about, is who do you try to change?
“I mean, systems, or societies, or people, or politics or what?
“So I suppose that’s what it boils down to. That’s what I’m struggling with. The basics.”
“I suppose you’re going to ask about a photo again.
“And I’ll say clouds again.”